Sharpening.

I am being challenged in so many new ways. Since high school, I have been on a hunt to truly find my own faith. Not the faith of my family, not of my friends, but the one that really jives best with what I believe to be true of the Lord's calling in my own heart, through His spirit.

I am attending a church currently that really challenges my comfort zone. It is a bit more "lively" than churches I tend to prefer. (Is that wrong?) It is a bit more casual than churches that I tend to attend. (Should that matter?) I would need to be re-baptized in order to join this church (Why does that really shake me up?) I am convinced now, more than ever, that missions is a "must" and not a "when I get to it". (Challenging.)

So....why do I still hesitantly share with others where I attend church? Why do I feel the need to justify my choice with "I really love the teaching" lest anyone think that I wear jeans to church, attend a believer's baptism church or a church where people say "Amen" out loud?

I am so prideful.

The end.

I am encouraged to really step out of my typical patterns and get face-to-face with my Jesus. Use my time, money and relationships intentionally. I can no longer get away with just showing my example through my life- I am being challenged to SAY what I believe- boldly- so that others might come to understand and believe the Gospel of Jesus. How thankful I am to be in a place that is really causing me to think and search myself.

Lord, may you allow me wisdom as I continue to seek you in the process of joining a church. Help me not to shy away from a place based on non-essentials, rather base my decision on challenging teaching and living.